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Saturday, September 19, 2009

Love is Blind...

You all know the saying: Love is blind. I used to say that love is blind...deaf and dumb too.

If you've read my blog before, you are aware that I was in a torturous 6 year relationship. Something I was unaware of until the last year or two, but by then, I felt it was too late. I also didn't want to give up. Again, love is blind...deaf and dumb too.

I was sitting in the chair, in my younger brother's hospital room (that's a whole other blog post. Stay tuned.) and my father, brother and I started talking about cars. The car, that Sean flew out off was a car similar to the first one I ever purchased for myself. A Chevy Cavalier. I loved it. But I digress.

I mentioned how I love the new Toyota Rav 4's. Plus, my mother is constantly pestering me to buy a 4-wheel drive vehicle. "Sure, Mom, let me just shell out that cash." I also mentioned that I would love to have it in white, with tan leather interior and a sun-roof.

"I'm getting a sun-roof in my next car, since Bob* didn't let me get one [in the car I have now]," I said defiantly.

My father asked, a-matter-o-factly: "Why did he have any influence over what you wanted in your car?"

I was silent. We turned back to the matter at hand, which was my brother's health.

The whole two sentence exchange got me thinking, as to how much control he really had over me. I was the puppet and he held the strings. I didn't know any better and frankly I didn't know I should have known any better.

Despite all of the warning signs, and all of the things I would say to myself. I knew I was blind, but I didn't do anything to correct my situation. I thought he knew best. Like my Dad. Turns out, really only father knows best. I will forever take my Dad's advice, because to me, he's the smartest man I've ever met. Has he made mistakes? Of course, who hasn't? But that doesn't mean he doesn't know what's best for his little girl.

He tries, anyway.

Love is blind...deaf and dumb too. I was lucky to regain my eyesight to truly see the real person and the situation I created around me. It wasn't easy. But it was the best decision of my entire life.

Thus far.

Here's to a road of recovery.


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